Living

Every Goodbye One more goodbye as the train pulls out I can only sit back and pout Holding onto memories to take me by And as the winds blow I silently sigh I begin this pray for a hearts that's stronger But one more parting has just left me colder Tomorrow I will build one more wall To shield me as I say another bye to all Once I had promised myself I will not cry, I'm fine I had promised myself I will care less this time I had promised myself I will hurt for none, not again I had promised myself, but I still feel the pain Fate calls me, its time again, come sweet child We have a journey so yet again you say goodbye Paths were taken that cannot be changed And we have to go and don't ask why So I wave out again and hold back that tear As a new prayer crosses my quivering lips And longing knocks at my freezing heart Hope comes along to say, maybe the next goodbye will be the last

Before I Turn 27 Its one hour before I turn 27 I keep wondering how one more year went by in my life. I was thinking what I wanted and what I don't. I thought I would watch just one more movie before it turns 12 and my family will call me. I thought why not just switch off my phone and sleep off, one year back this is what I did. I closed myself from the world. I just hurt the people who love me and thats also just a handful of people.  As the years go by I notice lesser people messaging me and at 10pm today I cried to my sister how my room mate is weighing her options about how she spends her time with me, how my boy friend didnt bother to get me a gift, okay he was sick and all but according to me he should have got me something atleast before I landed in town, how less and less people do things for me.  Then my little sister is good at making me happy and is very convincing but it keeps coming back. What if next year it will be only my two sisters calling and my mo

I Bought A Pregnancy Test A few years back a friend of mine wanted to buy a pregnancy test, she hadn't got her period in sometime and wanted to confirm it first before she told anyone. I never actually thought of this. I always wondered about buying condoms or birth control pills but never about a pregnancy test. A pregnancy scare is something most girls face who are sexually active (I thought of saying most married women face but then I thought what the hell, why play it  safe). So a pregnancy scare comes with many nuances. First, do I tell my partner now? what would be his reaction? What do I want? ...and so on. Apparently these are not questions that only an "unmarried women" woman asks herself but even married women face similar questions in present day situations. They have a similar set of apprehensions like would he be happy with this new situation? his reaction? or the worst would he blame me for"letting" this happen? My friend belonged to the

Give Me Time I know friend my first hesitation hurt badly And I saw the pain in your eyes from my questions. I know you needed a hug then, quite frankly But instead, I gave you cowardly suggestions. I know the time has passed and I don’t live that moment But for you, time doesn't change as you suffer in silence. I know your forgiveness came as atonement For our friendship moves on in full vehemence. I Know they say Love thy neighbor as thy self But now how do I love those who hate you. I know your heart is on a closed closet shelf Crying out to love freely like everyone else too. I know you live a life masked by sarcasm To protect yourself from mockery and intolerance. I know you put up a false enthusiasm For a world that judges with no consequence. I know the time for realization is creeping near So heed my plea and let your resistance not fade away Give me time once again to change this world for you my dear Don’t lose hope for I wa