Living

You cruel bright thing who plays with time And shamelessly kindles hope without consequence For the birds chirping feeds the fire That today is the first day of new beginnings You rob me the luxury of dilemmas And push me to choose the hard path The moment the sun touches my feet I have to accept the reality of what has to be done You break the resolve of a disgruntled lover For she forgets the strife of the night before Only to roll over and smile at his face and turn the bitterness for another do-over You wake me up with joy from the night before Only to deny me the sorrow of a lost mother For you force relentlessly, nothing but rejoicing I wish you never were, Oh you evil blessed Morning!

In the darkness of the night I sit by my bedside upright There is never a moment of peace Or the time that I can take on lease All it would have taken is a no Had I decided then to be a hero Never again I tell myself forever But all had said yes, to work together I sit in the silence once again Ignoring the time and the pain My hands move but my mind is numb Oh how I wish help would one day come All the time I lie, say it's learning Hoping one day it will affect my earning My body feels betrayed, my feelings have fled Onwards I will move, till I have bled But in the brightness of the morning sky Am i just lucky to welcome every sunrise Am I sighing looking at nature's beauty Or is it just the burden of the day ahead of me